As I have strolled through this journey of faith, I’ve found that I end up with more questions than answers.
The more time I spend studying Scripture, Church history, theology, and the like, I find myself wrestling even more with issues rather than figuring them out.
I find myself doing more pondering than reaching solutions.
But, I have this feeling that maybe this is how it is supposed to be…
If I found acceptable answers for all of life’s questions, I just might stop the search. And, isn’t the search the point of faith? Maybe questions are actually healthy…and we’re entering dangerous territory when we stop questioning things.
It’s not that I never find answers to my questions…sometimes God helps make some things clear to me…it’s just that some issues lie in the gray area…and I continue to struggle with exactly what God would want me to say, do, or think on the subject at hand.
In the midst of seeking answers to questions, I find myself growing. I find my faith growing deeper when I wrestle and struggle with various issues. I find myself becoming more dependent on God. I find myself trusting more in the grace, love, mercy, and compassion of God. And, I find myself more and more able to accept the fact that maybe, just maybe, it’s not God’s intended plan for me to know everything.
And so, I continue to struggle through my questions. I continue to search for answers. I continue to seek out God…And I find comfort in knowing that God is with me in my questions.
While we’re on the subject of questions…I’m just going to throw it out there that we probably need to stop saying that we’ve “got a lot of questions for God when I get to heaven.” I think that’s a pretty bad view of the afterlife. I’m pretty sure when we encounter God’s awesome presence, the last thing on our mind is going to be our list of questions. I have a feeling that when we experience God in all of His glory, we aren’t really going to be concerned about why God allowed this or that to happen…I’m pretty sure we’ll be completely consumed in awe and our only response will be worship.